Monday, November 29, 2004
Hmmmm......
What to do? What to say? It really doesn't matter. It is not like anyone reads this but myself and like 4-5 other people. Oh well, what good is self administered psychoanalysis if no one sees how it works! So anyway, winter break is right around the corner... thank God for that. I need to get out of this hell hole for awhile. There are great people here, but there are also some I cannot stand. And frankly at noon i dont want it to be 15 degrees after windchill. Sunny So Cal is where i need to be. Good friends, decent family, and 'cold' winters that drop below 60 during the day!
Either way I just need to get outta this place for a bit. So many decisions, so many lies, so many memories. They all seem to be going no where, I am in the proverbial controlled decent of my Ripon career.
What to do? What to say? It really doesn't matter. It is not like anyone reads this but myself and like 4-5 other people. Oh well, what good is self administered psychoanalysis if no one sees how it works! So anyway, winter break is right around the corner... thank God for that. I need to get out of this hell hole for awhile. There are great people here, but there are also some I cannot stand. And frankly at noon i dont want it to be 15 degrees after windchill. Sunny So Cal is where i need to be. Good friends, decent family, and 'cold' winters that drop below 60 during the day!
Either way I just need to get outta this place for a bit. So many decisions, so many lies, so many memories. They all seem to be going no where, I am in the proverbial controlled decent of my Ripon career.
For those who don't know, a controlled decent is when a multiengined airplane starts to run out of fuel and starts to lose engines one by one. There is nothing you can do to stop it, all you know is that eventually that fourth motor is going to go out and then BAM! SEEEEEEEEEE YA!
I have yet to decide weither or not this controlled decent is a good thing or bad, and if so what to even do about it! Either way fuck this noise, I'm outta here
oh yea.... and God hates you
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
Blah! No resolution... Oh well...
that about sums things up right now.
Hell in a handbasket
Angry.... Gonna eat some turkey and drink some booze... hopefully hot tub it...
by the time i get back maybe i will have something pertinant to write about... what ever
God Hates You
that about sums things up right now.
Hell in a handbasket
Angry.... Gonna eat some turkey and drink some booze... hopefully hot tub it...
by the time i get back maybe i will have something pertinant to write about... what ever
God Hates You
Sunday, November 21, 2004
Wow.....
I am a horrible person.
But am I? So I had a wonderful nite tongiht. Got drunk... Got laid... called a friend to have him bring his g/f down for an orgy with my current interest.
Definately interesting. It is good to be back. From shy and reserved, slowly starting to backslide into my highschool days. Which can be a good thing or a bad thing depending on the way you want to take it.
I am rather scared actually, I don't know what to do... Feelings are so far removed from me at this point in time, but they are starting to creap back in. This is.... confusing? I guess you would say. Either way. Quick update cause I have been recalcitrent on that.
God hates you!
PS Don't mind the spelling... Drunk for the first time in a loong while
I am a horrible person.
But am I? So I had a wonderful nite tongiht. Got drunk... Got laid... called a friend to have him bring his g/f down for an orgy with my current interest.
Definately interesting. It is good to be back. From shy and reserved, slowly starting to backslide into my highschool days. Which can be a good thing or a bad thing depending on the way you want to take it.
I am rather scared actually, I don't know what to do... Feelings are so far removed from me at this point in time, but they are starting to creap back in. This is.... confusing? I guess you would say. Either way. Quick update cause I have been recalcitrent on that.
God hates you!
PS Don't mind the spelling... Drunk for the first time in a loong while
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
Blah I say.... Blah about sums up my life. It is rather dull and drama filled. I am seriously contemplating just saying fuck it all and enlistening... Get some money... kill some people... get in shape... everything i have always wanted... just a phone call away essentially... I am okay with this, but most other people are not. Oh well... Fuck em.. It is my decision, and as far as I am concerned I have yet to hear a compelling argument to stay. So young.... So angry... Damn that rap music!
Fuck you.....
God Hates Me
Fuck you.....
God Hates Me
