Tuesday, March 08, 2005
Nothing says sheer enjoyment like opening one's self up to public scrutiny. Why am I doing this..... That is a good question.... I really don't know... Nothing better to do I guess. The vodka is gone, as is the beer and the MD 20/20. The music is off, people are sleeping, and I.... I am not. I am an insomniac; plain an simple... I don't sleep... What the fuck is sleep anyway? A fucking waste of time.... thats what it is. I am currently in Wisconsin freezing my fucking balls off, and for what? A possibility of change, a possibility of advancement, a possibility to get my shit in order? who the fuck knows... I sure as fuck don't.
So I have come to grips with a horrible realization as of late... I am an addict... If it is fun, if it is bad, if (assuming you believe in hell) it will send me to hell... Then I am doing it, doing it to the extremes. And why not? The moments that have made me the happiest are those in which I was doing something bad. Balling the shit out of a girl in a Gap dressing room? Yea.. thats a fun one. Getting it on while in a hot tub with about 13 other people around... yea done that one too. I am a horrible person but I know this, and that, friends and neighbors, is what makes me superior.
So to those of you who don't know me, and those of you who do... judge me as you will... Leave me comments, I really don't care. I will say my peice, I will disgust you, I will rape your third eye, but most importantly I will leave you coming back for more. And that, that is what it boils down to. So do with it what you will.
So I have come to grips with a horrible realization as of late... I am an addict... If it is fun, if it is bad, if (assuming you believe in hell) it will send me to hell... Then I am doing it, doing it to the extremes. And why not? The moments that have made me the happiest are those in which I was doing something bad. Balling the shit out of a girl in a Gap dressing room? Yea.. thats a fun one. Getting it on while in a hot tub with about 13 other people around... yea done that one too. I am a horrible person but I know this, and that, friends and neighbors, is what makes me superior.
So to those of you who don't know me, and those of you who do... judge me as you will... Leave me comments, I really don't care. I will say my peice, I will disgust you, I will rape your third eye, but most importantly I will leave you coming back for more. And that, that is what it boils down to. So do with it what you will.
